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A few years back I was so hungry to exit the "rat race" of 9-5. Every day I'd just be stewing on the 90 minute commute to work. The thought of continuing this for another 40 years pissed me off to no end.
This pain and hurt led me to do stuff like work a ton, work until 3am many nights, isolate from family, family members thought I hated them, almost get a divorce, was a salty scruge in general, and eventually I made some good money and achieved a life of freedom that I've always desired.
Now that "phase 1 freedom" has been achieved - the fire has subsided and I feel too damn lazy. I really would love to figure out something that would get me back in that state of mind -- minus the family tensions of it all. I think I'm better equipped to compartmentalize the wolf these days and even now my wife realizes why I did what I did.
I am continuing on business, but I look in the mirror and I don't see a wolf anymore. Things are going well, but I work like 1 hour a day and always wanna find someone to do the work for me. I feel like I'm not hurting bad enough to go get it like a savage and 10x this biz. I'm as free as I want to be & make my own rules. What else do I need? I like to chill out on my back deck and go fishing on occasion. I drive an old truck. I'm not into possessions. Probably need to find internal motivation rather than external.
Michael Jordan would completely obliterate opponents because he claimed they talked shit about his game. Years later he admits that many times it was a lie he told himself in order to gas himself up. He manufactured that 'pain' in his mind and it made him perform his best. Is my motivation a matter of finding within myself what gases me up (and it's different for everyone)?
How can I trick myself into thinking I'm starving out here?
This pain and hurt led me to do stuff like work a ton, work until 3am many nights, isolate from family, family members thought I hated them, almost get a divorce, was a salty scruge in general, and eventually I made some good money and achieved a life of freedom that I've always desired.
Now that "phase 1 freedom" has been achieved - the fire has subsided and I feel too damn lazy. I really would love to figure out something that would get me back in that state of mind -- minus the family tensions of it all. I think I'm better equipped to compartmentalize the wolf these days and even now my wife realizes why I did what I did.
I am continuing on business, but I look in the mirror and I don't see a wolf anymore. Things are going well, but I work like 1 hour a day and always wanna find someone to do the work for me. I feel like I'm not hurting bad enough to go get it like a savage and 10x this biz. I'm as free as I want to be & make my own rules. What else do I need? I like to chill out on my back deck and go fishing on occasion. I drive an old truck. I'm not into possessions. Probably need to find internal motivation rather than external.
Michael Jordan would completely obliterate opponents because he claimed they talked shit about his game. Years later he admits that many times it was a lie he told himself in order to gas himself up. He manufactured that 'pain' in his mind and it made him perform his best. Is my motivation a matter of finding within myself what gases me up (and it's different for everyone)?
How can I trick myself into thinking I'm starving out here?
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